Still Working

 

Nothing is moving forward quickly but things are moving and I am trying to enjoy the process. This past year or two has been something of an eyeopener in regards to human nature and the idea of truth and honesty. I found myself in a couple situations that were not expected or wanted but they have reminded me directly about how people can make choices, give or withhold information with intention and the results of said choices or info. 

Without getting into the details or specifics let's just say it's personal and has affected my life and the direction of my future plans. It might be a direct cause for the revamping of my desire to write publicly about my life again. Thinking my silly life or my ideas about it all might help, affect, encourage others to improve their lives, seek help and or give ideas for such is the main goal of it all. I've found that in life sometimes we come across people, ideas or thoughts in random ways and it can affect change in our lives and quite possibly those around us. One could say that God works in mysterious ways and yes, this whole new season is in direct relation to Him and what He wants for my life, or what is left of it anyway...

To say that I have found my way back to my faith is an understatement. I have been praying for years and years that my two children will find their way to Jesus and their personal walk with Him. Being that I was married to a wonderful lady for almost 20 years who was not interested in having a relationship with Him I always found it hard to try and introduce Him to my kids. I did though, I tried many times in my own way and thought for all these years that I had been a failure. A couple years ago my daughter got married and at her wedding reception my son told me he had found his way and was studying about Him. A few weeks later I found out that my daughter and her husband were also investigating Him and starting their own walk.... Huge!

I did not expect any of that and it gave me so much joy! It was like the best news I had ever heard in my entire life, was life changing for me and I would expect for them as well. We have not talked all that much about it together but I have had many talks with my son and that has brought so much light into my simple life that it's hard to describe in words. The relationship we have with the Lord is so personal and important that just hearing your kids are entering into that relationship is unreal and soul lifting. I can't imagine not having that relationship myself and even though I'm a sinner like everyone else it gives me hope that He can reach anyone, anytime, anyplace and we are all His. As a Christian father, hearing that your kids are finding their way is the biggest gift one can receive and hearing it was just that. Praise be!

Anyway, I'm going to do my level best to continue to push forward everyday with humility in my new season, in a quiet but steady way that hopefully will help anyone that stumbles across my ideas and writing. We all need some help in this life that's for sure and if I can do that for anyone though this it will be all worth it in the end. Take care world and peace be with you...

New Seasons.

 

Seven years later and I see that the blog is still here, it's interesting to see something I used so much time on for so many years surviving on the world wide web and still getting views. Obviously, the numbers are small but that does not matter to me, I just find it curious that people still visit. Honestly, I don't know what exactly I'm going to use it for now, other than writing my thoughts again hoping to find some clarity in this life. I remember having feelings of personal growth due to the writing and sharing of ideas and thoughts. Maybe the juices will flow again and I will find meaning in the blogging and posting. 

For me, I am starting a new season and pray that it will be my best. I know that it's been close to a decade since my sharing and much has happened in my meager life but it has been meaningful, full of learning and growth. Nothing is easy in this life, even though at times things might seem easier than others, we all struggle with our lives to some degree and it's the way of the world for now. One thing has stayed the same for almost ten years since my last share and that is that people, or should I say my opinion of people has not really changed. We are for the most part hopeful but very flawed. Confusion and uncertainty are more on the surface than I remember and I see it. 

I never stopped writing or thinking about the idea of expressing myself through my scribbelings, I have not been sharing, just keeping a few handwritten journals for myself and that has been a good exercise for personal growth and reflection. Anyway, I will be posting more and working on a few changes to the blog and see where that leads. Maybe a Substack or something in combination of or with a youtube channel. Who knows? Only the Big man upstairs really and may all things be done in His name and glory. Peace everyone.